No Drama Mama

 I used to think that I was a pretty good judge of character, I could, and still can, read people.  Have you ever missed the mark though and allowed a Trojan horse to infiltrate your inner circle?  At this age, I really thought people ( as a whole) grew out of these antics. That mean girls mature and become nice, that manipulators find their real value to others and press into the authentic ways to communicate.   Definitely naivety at it's best, but really its me always wanting to believe that people are better than that, that people grow, heal and desire genuine connections. An unfortunate reality, mean girls grow up to be mean women, manipulators only hone their skills and damaged people choose to damage other people.  It's sad! I can wish all day long that everyone is good to their core. That each person wants to be the best version of themselves and desires to do the hard work on themselves but there will always be wolves in sheep clothing amongst us. ...

 Do you ever have Squirrel brain?  If you aren't sure what i'm referring to, lets take a journey!! A journey through what its like to be my brain on any given day. I wake up, so tired, already thinking about bedtime that night.  Get kids off to school and begin to start a load of laundry, but I notice once I'm in the laundry room that there are tools that need to be put away in the garage.  So I take the tools out to the garage, where I see the shop vac and remember that the kids spilled goldfish in my car. So I start vacuuming my car.  Where I stumble upon a shoe that has no match, so I go bak inside to pair this lonely shoe with its mate...and realize that once upstairs that kids didn't make their beds.  So mid bed making I find a hair bow that needs to go in the bow box downstairs.  As I'm descending the stairs I recognize a pull in my hamstring and think "yay, I'm getting a little exercise", which reminds me I haven't eaten.  I walk into the k...

  Do you ever have the sensation of shedding your skin and stepping out an improved version of you, feeling a wave of growth and change in yourself?  So often, when I am experiencing this season of change, I'm very quick to put myself back in the box and in turn stunt my own growth.  I accept the lies of the enemy as my own voice for myself.  How do you body step into the "you" that you know you're being called to be without allowing the doubt and fear weigh you back down?  I want to leave my mark, stand for the things I believe in, and make a difference that has lasting effects on my children.  I want them to see the possibilities and go after their dreams.   Having been a stay at home mom for 12 years now, I feel that it limits the possibility of being taken serious out in the real world.  The reality here is that if I undervalue myself and I hold myself back, it's never really been about being afraid of what others might think; it's about letti...